Some matters to solve...

[kokoronohanashi]

First of all, sorry, f-list, for disturbing you with my emo posts... That is what happens when you hide your feelings, and they accumulate so much that when you get things off your chest, they come all at once. lol I'm very sorry if I sounded rude or if I complained (and bitched) too much. Let's say that I'm not a sweet person, but it doesn't mean that I'm a bad-tempered person. Just a human being like everyone else, with their ups and downs. XD

After reflecting a bit more, I made a few decisions:

- Keep this journal

At least for now, I'll keep this account, because as I said in the last entry, there are more positive points than negative. And, if I organize my schedule well, it's possible to be a fangirl without affecting rl. ^^"

- A very small f-list cut (after months trying to have the courage lol)

If you can't see this entry, it is probably due to the fact that you either have an inactive journal, we rarely talk and/or we don't share the same interests anymore. If you think different and somehow want us to be friends again, please comment here or send me a PM and we can talk about it, okay? =]
To everyone else: if you find me a boring person and my entries annoying, think that we no longer have any interest in common, but didn't have the courage to say, this is the time to cut me from your list. I won't mind, really, there are no resents/hard feelings, because, honestly, I'm not that much keen on these stuffs of friending... I realised that online friendship =/= real life friendship, although I'm as shy here as in rl. Moreover, well...IDK how to explain, I want to give a new start to me and to this journal and be more friendly with people. *talks nonsense*

EDIT: Sorry, I think I expressed myself badly...Please, forgive me for being so rude again. *bows* Ignore everything I wrote...

So, that's what I wanted to say. Thanks for reading, by the way. =]
See you~ o/

Comments

[maangochan.livejournal.com]

...I survive? YAAAAAAAYYYYY \:D/
And yay for being human! Jsyk, I'm not at all bothered by your posts.........okay, a little bit, but only because I don't comment much and it's one of those things I have on my guilt list. I'll try to be a better lj friend :D

[chiefuku.livejournal.com]

^_______^
It's okay to not comment much, I also haven't been that much updated with my flist...*sighs*. So, let's try to be a better lj friend together! XD

/STARES AT THE EITO BABY ICON

[asya-chan.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to see that you didn't cut me :)

I think it's OK to be the way you are. Nobody should try to act all nice and sweet with others just because it seems like others expect it.
And yeah, accumulation of negative feelings never helps. (probably that's why I write about different things, including negative ones, regularly, so as not to make them piled up)

Well, in my opinion, even just silently reading the friends' entries is fine. I mean, we don't friend only for commenting, right? :) I friend people because I find their entries interesting for myself, and 'cause I feel like getting to know the lives of other people.

Anyway. What I wanted to say is I think that it's fine to be a silent stalker(like you mentioned in your previous entry)! :D I hope you have and will have a fulfilling real life and awesome friends! ♥

[chiefuku.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't cut you! XD

Thanks! When I made the last post, I was kind of self-conscious for writing all those stuffs, but now I feel relieved...Although for this entry I'm still feeling a bit guilty lol. I think I'll post more often, because this way the feelings don't get piled up (and so, I won't feel horrible for complaining so much at once ^^').

You're totally right. As much as I don't demand people to always comment in my journal, I don't always comment on my f-list's. The people I cut were more because they are inactive/don't share any interests, but IDK if I will do another cut, I just feel weird for deleting people. =/

Thank you for the lovely comments! Even so, I'm sorry for being a bad lj friend, I promise that I'll be back to the "my-pace and easy-going" mode soon lol and that we can fangirl about K8 and other JE groups. <3

[asya-chan.livejournal.com]

I didn't try to delete people, so I don't know how it feels.. Anyway, I think we should just be a bit careful when picking friends XD

My-pace is a very good thing! :D And you are not a bad lj friend at all, so don't worry!! ^^

Is it me, or did you change your layout? XDD

[chiefuku.livejournal.com]

Yeah, this is why I will think carefully before participating in friending memes. :O

Thank you! <3

I changed, but didn't really like this one. ^^' I was looking for a layout which allowed me to use a header image in a easy way *is a noob when it comes to html and css lol* and found this one, but when I added the image, the page got narrow, Idk how to explain. D: Will probably change to another one soon. XD

[asya-chan.livejournal.com]

I've never participated in one XDD

I'm not that good with HTML and CSS either, so I just used a design generator XD

[chiefuku.livejournal.com]

The good point is that you know many people who share the same interests as you, but the bad point is that unfortunately some appear just in the f-meme...Idk, it's kind of creepy lol. :O

How does it work? o.o

[asya-chan.livejournal.com]

Then I don't think I'd try to participate in it any time soon~ XD

There a bunch of different layout styles from which you can choose and after that you just fill in the data you want: width of the journal, colours and the rest..But it's all in Russian: http://lj.yoksel.ru/
I can help you make your layout, if you want! :D

[chiefuku.livejournal.com]

I guess it's more a matter of luck, because we can also meet awesome people there. XD

Wow, it's amazing! *-* Thank you, I'd appreciate your help! XD But I think I'll keep this one for a while. ^^'

[asya-chan.livejournal.com]

It's great if some people are so lucky! :)

As you wish :D Tell me any time if you want any changes ^^

[chiefuku.livejournal.com]

Ok, I'll tell you! <3 Maybe soon I'll change. ^^

[apple-o-rama.livejournal.com]

I probably should have gone on hiatus but I just...didn't, but I did read your journal entries :) and I find you interesting so hush your mouth! And tbh, I think you didn't need to edit this post because you were being honest and thats something I value very highly in a friend, whether it be online or in RL

And I'm glad you kept me either way ♥

[chiefuku.livejournal.com]

First of all, thanks for the lovely comment! ;___;
I'm very glad to know that you find me an interesting person and that you read my entries. <3 I edited the post because as I talk to a few people here in LJ, I don't know how the great majority of my flist would react, so I felt a bit guilty for saying all those stuffs, but now that I think about it, there is nothing to regret...After all, this is a personal journal, right? And we're free to talk about anything. =/

I wouldn't cut you. <33 (plus, we friended each other not so long ago~)

[aznsao9.livejournal.com]

aww i hope everything is going well for you.
despite many things occurring or have been occurring.
anyways, happy birthday to you! don't know how old you'll be but i hope it's an amazing b-day. C:

[chiefuku.livejournal.com]

Yeah, things in real life is settling little by little. ^^'
Anyway, thank you!!! For worrying about me and for remembering my birthday! <333 (and I'm about to be 20~ /is aging XD)

[aznsao9.livejournal.com]

that's good to know. C:
nad you're welcome, and a birthday is always a special day. C:
haha really, well, you're aging 2 years behind me though. well i'll be 22 this year. xD so i'm aging a lil faster. xD